It's been a long time since I posted something. Alot of shit's gone down too. I went from INTO a relationship and LEFT it. Jan 1st-February 23rd. Now she's a bitch that won't get out my fuckin house and insists on bringing her new boyfriend home.

The one girl I actually had a general interest in (everyone knows her name) did a full fletched tongue-in-throat makeout session with an old best friend. Kinda reminds me of RICHARD from 9th grade; a best friend who makes out with a girl i really care about, strictly for the thrill.

I hate alot of people right now. I'm at yet another low emotional point.

It's been over a year since I made my second biggest life altering mistake of moving out of redding. Since then what do I have to show for it? I've got SOME good friends, yes. But along with them came heartbreak, backstabbers, liars, fakes, assholes, druggies, and some upright losers. It's the primary reason I wanted to leave the bay area when I was 15. And along with that state of mind, I'm gonna leave again. This time for good. Never wanna live here again.

I'm sorry to people I made promises to, but I'm sick of this place.


I miss my friends FAMILY.


I miss Redding.

My mom finally called me after a year of not talking. She's much better now, and offered to let me move in till I find a place. I'm gonna do it. I just gotta situate a job transfer so I don't go up there unemployed.


"On the day when the wagons come, I just pray that you let me on."