So I decided to close my myspace for good.


WHY?!


Yes, I was known as the stereotypical "myspace whore", but last night was a really fucking depressing situation.


Alright, so I've known this chick Marika since the 9th grade through my ex Maria, but me and Marika never ACTUALLY met. We always talked on LJ and on the phone constantly (keep in mind this was before the myspace era). Then we started talking on myspace, and I JUST moved back to concord and told her we should hang out. We hung out overnight and yes, I was extremely shy because I've had a crush on this girl SINCE the 9th grade. She said she would share her bed with me, but I said "alright if that's okay with you" so we did. blah blah blah stuff happened and it seemed okay. We take the bus to her job and we part ways saying we'll hang out soon. We haven't spoken since.


Now, I don't know if it's because she has a boyfriend and she either feels GUILTY for what happened, or if he FOUND OUT, or if I came on TOO STRONG, or what.... But I think it's entirely unfair, fucked up, and downright heartless that she actually BLOCKED me without saying a word last night. She literally did. The worst part is I didn't get any closure. Sure, it could be her boyfriend being a dick, but then again, most girls are entirely untrustworthy. WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO?! I was so fucking depressed. I've had feelings for this girl I didn't know I could have. It must mean something that it's been this long and nothing's changed about her. It felt like something inside me died and my world was coming to an end. Misery. Straight up.

So that's when I realized that aside from some of the GREAT fucking things myspace has done (IE: Finding people I would've NEVER gotten back in contact after I moved to redding, and family I haven't seen in forever), myspace has too much drama, heartbreak, misery, anything you wanna call it. It just adds alot more drama than I need in my fucking life at this point in time. And I mean, I got all the friends I need and want, and I wouldn't trade them for anything. And the last thing I need is another crazy bitch I met on myspace screwing up my life. I'd rather be single than deal with another Cheyanne or Cecilie.

It's fucking lame. I'm not in high school anymore, and I don't need the drama dragged along with me. Hopefully I don't feel encouraged to go back to myspace, because honestly, the cons are way too much to take. So until the drama dies down, I'm not going back. The end.