So I haven't listened to AFI in quite a while, and if you know me well enough, you know AFI is one of my all-time favorite bands, if not at the top of my list. But listening to the tracks on the DecemberUnderground album, I came to realize that EVERY SINGLE SONG brings back a memory of 2006. Some good, some bad. But overall, it's the one cd that can reflect my whole last year's experience into one small disk. I wrote descriptions to show everyone what I mean.

DecemberUnderground
By AFI

Prelude 12/21 - Walking home from Chinese Gourmet with nothing but a CD player and a backpack with my work clothes. I listened to it to give me inspiration on my life. I was where God wanted me to be, and for some reason this was a part of his almighty plan.

Kill Caustic - A haunting nightmare revolving around living with my father and his abusive relationship towards his youngest son. I listened to it to help me face my fear that my father wasn't in my life anymore, and how far I've come emotionally to be where I am today.

Miss Murder - Two memories. The first being when I lived in Sacramento with Alex, Matt and Chris. With three out of four of us in a band, and living together, having our own instruments and recording equipment in our OWN recording room, I was SO freakin psyched to finally be part of a band like I've always dreamed. Though we all had creative differences, it was great to just fucking JAM. Not to mention I played Miss Murder religiously... The second memory is Lacy. I admit, I loved her so fucking much. She was the one girl I always had in the back of my mind, and I was waiting to come back to be with her. She was my miss murder.

Summer Shudder - The pleasant bus rides from my home in Sunnydale to the heart of the city. It made me feel like everything would finally work out, because I've always dreamed of living in the big city with my older brother, and though the circumstances sucked, I got what I wished for.

The Interview - The time I feel like I finally hit rock bottom. I was addicted to this song and listened to it 24/7 when me and my older brother got evicted and I was forced to leave the city I loved, to Hayward; the city I despised.

Love Like Winter - My visits to Redding. I always listened to it on the way up. It make me remember all the good times I've had growing up with the Vagrant Souls.

Affliction - Playing Bass and jamming in Cody's basement with him and Donny. I finally felt appreciated for my talents, whether I was well experienced at playing an instrument or not.

The Missing Frame - The morning after a huge drunken party (usually at Casey's). I finally had friends which I haven't had in a while since I moved from Redding. I felt like I was FINALLY not going to be alone again.

Kiss And Control - When I moved back to my grandparents house for the 2nd time. I kid you not, i felt like finally ending it all and hanging myself from the back of the gazebo. It finally felt like my life had no meaning. I lost my friends, I lost my purpose, and I was depending on my grandparents to prevent me from living on the streets again.

The Killing Lights - All the time when I was in San Francisco. This track was my motivation to go back to Redding where I felt like I belong. I felt like right when I hopped off that greyhound bus, the whole fucking group would bust out with instruments and we'd be singing that song live, in the middle of the street. The most hopeful song I ever heard.

37mm - Every time I was alone in the apartment in Concord, I'd blast this song. It was the first song Ben played when I first came to visit last year, and it's been an alltime fave ever since. It always reminds me of the times I spent with the guy who basically raised me. The good, the bad. He was always there. Even when I hate him, I love him.

Endlessly, She Said - Yet another song that reminded me of Lacy. It was near October when I finally gave up on the one I desperately loved with all my heart. It also made me realize that it's been almost 2 years, and nothing ever stays the same. I thought she would be there for me, but she was never there to begin with.